Excited?

Chris and I have both had a lot of people ask us if we are excited that the end is in sight and that we could have our baby boy this time next week... WELL, it has honestly been such a tough long road I don't think we've allowed ourselves to get excited per say. It all started with our difficulties to get and stay pregnant, getting through the losses we've had and now surviving this very difficult pregnancy. That doesn't include our necessity to manage normal day-to-day activities and hoping that the ball doesn't drop too soon with this pregnancy... let's just say we've been very distracted.

I think it is really hard to explain how scary it is go get through each day not knowing if "IT" will be the day that I hemorrhage or "IT" will be the day we have to deliver the baby by emergency c-section. I have bled so much I am starting to become used to it, but "IT" is not normal and quite scary.

I think once we actually get to Tuesday we will breathe a sigh of relief because all of the unknowns will become known (with the exception of if I end up with a hysterectomy or how badly I'll bleed during the surgery), but at this point none of that matters...

We ARE getting excited, in fact Chris called me this morning because he had heard something on the radio where someone was talking about bringing their family to Disney World and he had a revelation that WE will have our family very soon. Of course we are a family with Henry and Brera but the dynamics change somewhat with another person to add to our roster and WE are very excited about that!